speechless..

Most of my blog posts are poetry.. and someone hit a soft spot and I blew up and wrote something very hurtful. I was taught to stand tall, and to never shrink down, and we really all have our moments when we need to blowout. and i did that exactly. I hurt someone, and I expressed my feelings in the wrong way. This is how I really feel.. I feel like I've lost a big part of my life. I lost a friend, a friend that put her boy infront of her friends. She may have not seen that but yeah she really did, and I still had the girls to be there for me, but still I had to see her at school. It's hard im not going to lie its fucking difficult, but when she looked me in the eyes today and said "I dont consider you a friend" really hit me, because I know feel like this is all my fault. When It's not. Were two different people, I speak my mind, and im not affraid to be STRAIGHT forward, and I did it in a wrong way but that blog post was for me to let out my anger. I believe I shouldnt have made it that big, but everyone is allowed an opinion. But what really sucks the most is seeing him just go to her and comfort her, while I just sit there and he could care less.. It really shows how I was never really there friends. This is how I FEEL.. and I really don't care what people think/say but this is my side of everything.

and for whoever I hurt with my last post.. I do appologize, but not because i have to much pride, but because I have always been a real friend. That's all.